Diary: 30 October 2004

I had a productive day. I woke up at about 8 in the morning and I blasted my Usher album in the house. Only the three boys of us were in the house. I sms-ed Melman if he wanted to go to Sg Wang, I had to make amends for the day before for blowing him away. I had wonderful time with Melman and Lisa we walked around Sg Wang and Bintang walk area. Man it’s been a long time since I’ve been there.


I took liberty of the Isetan special IMC sale and got myself a Pair of Santa Barbara shoes for work. We had lunch at Planet Hollywood; the menu has changed a bit lame now, not up to Chilies standards. I had a club sandwich; Mel had ‘ayam perchik’. We decided to go to One Utama to catch a movie.

We reached One Utama and we immediately went to the cinema, we bought tickets for the Grudge (Ju-on) and Shark’s Tale. The Grudge did not disappoint me. It had all the works of a good horror movie. The script writing was simple yet strong. I give you all my recommendation to see it. Shark’s Tale on the other hand fell short from my expectation, a very bad script, for those planning to see it please do catch it on the VCD (Pirate).

During my time in One Utama Mel and I visited these Hong Kong theme restaurants. If you have noticed these concept restaurant has been growing in KL. Their weird menu and drinks are a attraction to the customers, Chinese customers mainly. I was the only Indian there; as I was going through the menu I came a across this drink Boiled coke with ginger. Who does that?

I’ve been searching for a nice steel watch; does anybody know where can I get one? All the design is so huge these days. Do you think Christina Aguilera is banking on Britney’s downfall? I love the ‘Tilt your head’ with Nelly its so 70’s.

Diary: 29 October 2004

Its a Friday... a Friday casual day at work with nothing to worry, its the end of the week and besides it Pay day. Boy was I wrong, everything when hectic right after luch, good luch though yummy banana leaf rice with chicken varuval, Yum Yum. All of my WAP serviceswere down and needed to be rectified, my designers had addictional advert work to finish due to the Hari Raya rush.

Just to please myself I went to Tower Records and got myself a couple of CD's. I got the who series of Poetic Ammo so ow I can go to bed with peace. For those who took my cd and didn't give back please keep it to yourself. Saya halalkan makan minum bersama CD Poectic Ammo saya u sekali.... hahahahaha. But my best buy would be Usher's Special Editional Confessional CD. I seem to relate to the song Burn. The whole album has an RnB feel that would just breeze u all through the day. Makes you feel all happy and romantic inside. Lets see if i can slip the C resit in company claims.

I hear Shari was in KLCC today. If your reading this Shari, you should have called we could have had a drin at the car park... u tak puasa kan... hehehehe. Just kidding

Pay is still not in yet.... Damm u COMPANY !!!! Kena tunggu sampai Monday lah.

Diary: 28 October 2004

Everyone in the office was very casual today, I guess because of the Bukak Puasa Dinner tonight, it was nothing greatr same stuff that you would get in the hawker fest, I enyoed my sate and roasted lamb. Both very juicy. I had many scoops of ice-cream, the deserts were better than the main dishes. I was having fun with all the guys laughing our heads off. I've been appointed again to lead the company trip. I've got help this time, so i guess it woulnt be hard.

I have a problem, I cant say 'NO' to frens. whenever they ask for anything 'Yes' always slips in, which always leaves me in a predicament. Isetan sales starts today and pay is not in. I will definatekly have a quite weekend, I plan to wacth Wicker Park, romantic movie I think....

Short Story: The Lady who Shed No Tear

I already knew it was going to be a long weekend when I got a call from my day saying my uncle was terribly ill. Visiting him last week in the hospital already gave me an idea they he was quite bad but not death... Not this fast actually. My uncle was fighting cancer, a battle which brought my aunt together without her choice.

The man I hear had a difficult childhood from the beginning. His dad was a drunk, mum was beaten up. So naturally the behavior would have been fostered in him. He worked his way through school and worked at the port for a shipping company. He was rough from nature, they way he spoke and how his body was rough.
My uncle married a teacher and had a beautiful daughter. He was a spiteful man when he married her. He moved on to telecommunication firm and climbed the corporate ladder. My uncle believed in black magic. He used it for personal gain, money magnetism and to hurt others was his motive. Money was pouring in and he was always flying around Sarawak was his favorite destination.

Their marriage was a facade to everybody. He treated her like a maid and she played along. The communication between them was broken. She did what a wife should do cook, wash, iron. Both of them slept on separate beds. The love was not there. I always wondered why my aunt really stuck to him. An easy divorce Would have been easy. Why didn't she take the easy way, the generation of today seems to being doing that. It is not the right thing but why go through it all. I think it was because of her daughter she stuck into it.

I received the 'the call' about 10a.m.. My uncle had passed away, he leaves behind a wife and a daughter. Two strong people who will build a thick facade to show that the event will not hurt them. I would like to believe that they have soft yolk inside of them and they are hurting for their lost but from a third eyes view I see nothing.

Diary: 27 October 2004

Today everything swept me by like a breeze. I finished work at 6p.m. What a miracle? Had a hot dinner and I was on watching TV, I like ED the program's, he so funny. I must say the crew has corky ways in doing things and I love the RM10 bet he has with his best friend. It keeps the relationship alive.

I was reading CLEO yesterday night, Yes I do read Cleo it has many interesting articles in it, its much better than men's magazine just emphasize on boobies, slender bodies and one liners on gals. The magazines speak of how to better yourself, what a woman thinks (good for the guys who has no clue), and emotional stuff. I do love men's magazine This just additional reading material.

I was reading this 5 part article, the 1st part of the article talk about the Friends and values. Which would u hold on too. I have always been in this predicament, either you follow your friend or you be left out. According to the articles values you have are yours and belong to you only. Its hard decision one has to make but apparently if you don't hold on to your values your conscience will start to slip.. Tomorrow I will read about Friends or Love partner... Another predicament all of us have been in.

Diary: 26 October 2004

I love my work, although taxing I just love it. Why I like it cause I get to do whatever I want, whenever I want it. I am in power, super-visioned power anyway, I conducted an interview yesterday, the candidate was only 23, Chinese long black hair. Damm boy was I attracted to her but being in my corporate mode I did the interview. I had another shock to yesterday, a Malay girl was talking dirty to me on MSN, She sits just across me. It came to an extent she took of her b** just to prove a point... Its getting hot in here

All men want a Malay gals, we've discussed this before between the guys, the only thing stopping us is "the rule". I went shoe shopping yesterday with Lenny, Hush Puppies is closed due to renovation, and other places the design made my feet look like clown shoes, big and long. Men shoes are so expensive now, why women shoes are so cheap, this is why women have at least 3 pairs in their rack. Believe it or not My Mum have 6 pairs, that's not counting sneakers.

My dad is suffering from male menopause (Its true, men do through it, read it readers digest). Mood swings flying, I so inch away to open a can of whoop ass with my dad, but I always take the peaceful road, I just go to bed. Problems always flies away after a good sleep, small problems anyway.

Diary: 25 October 2004

I couldn't sleep the night through I was awake thinking about things, I'm back to square one. Life seems to be circle I cant seem to break out of it. Work was fairly normal although being Monday I managed to get away at 6.30. I went to Isetan to get a couple of slacks as some of mine have been a victim of my mom's house renovation. After buying my stuff I noticed that the Sales starts on the 29th... damm

Mel wasn't too please to hear about my breakup with Pris. I did tell him that it was all my fault and that I was suffering from the 'Chandler Syndrome' He never understood. I need to talk to someone, someone I can clear my head. There is a lot bottled up in me. Melman is not it. My closes friends are no more.

Priscilla sent me an email today telling me what it was in her heart. I have hurt her unintentionally, I couldn't express what I really felt in my reply but she has already assumed the worse about me. I don't blame her....

I sprained my ankle again... damm. It hurts like hell, having trouble walking. And tomorrow I need to go pant for a meeting. Its that time of the year again for me to put on weight with free 'Buka Puasa' Roadtrip around KL. My quest begins this Thursday at Eastin, company sponser.

Diary: 24 October 2004

I went out with Mel on Saturday night, It was Thai Club. I honestly didn't miss the scene same songs same people but I did meet yoges. Fat already... nolah ada isi. I also found out Peggy (God Mum) is working part-time, I wonder is times are bad. I must make time to see her. The party at Thai club ended at 4a.m. with a issue. Sometimes I'm not proud to be Indian. Its what others Indians do which people label the whole Indian culture.
As I came back later I slept My Sunday till 12.30. Woke up and had my brunch. Mum cooked nasi briyani with ayam rendang.. sedap siut. At about 1.30 we left for the graveyard. For those who have passed by the Cheras cemetery from far away its very picturesque view but in a close range its one crowded place
We started with our usual rounds, starting with my grandparents, its always an adventure to the cemetery, finding the plot or reading the burial notes. My favorite would definitely be "If you hear a noise its just me". I think the person who was burred there had a great sense of humor. If I were to die I would like to have a poem, Funeral Blues would be my choice...

Funeral Blues (by W. H. Auden)
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message
He Is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West.
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;I thought that love would last forever;

I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

We finished at 5p.m. Boy dont we have many dead relatives. If it was up to me I wouldn't go to anyone of them. More than half of them I have no clue who there were but I guess Dad is just doing his part to teach us about his family side. I think I would do the same if I had a kid of my own too. Well dats a thought.

Diary: 23 October 2004

Yesterday night I spend the night playing card games with Michele.... Boy did I make her laugh. We played UNO, the Traffic Light game and Reversi she beat me in all of it flat. My grandmother stayed watch with us. We were making jokes till 1 in the morning, my grandmother had no clue and kept on hushing us and telling us to go to bed.

I shared a room with Kelvin, I was too tired to have a chat with him so I dozed off but at the back of my mind was Priscilla on how I would break the news to her. I know she loves me and all but what happen if you don't have the same feelings back, should you still be in the relationship? I had a good sleep till my hand phone woke me up with my customary SMS. Everyone was still in bed, so I crept down to the kitchen brushed my teeth and made myself a cup of Milo (Bfast of Champion)

I love Aunt B's Kitchen it is a very spacious place, and its quiet. She renovated it a year ago tiled floor,fancy kitchen cabinet., the end product was very good. I sat in that kitchen sipping my Milo thinking what the day would bring me. I taught about my future and where it would take me. I know I am a loner, something Priscialla said still rings in my ear, "You don't need anyone to please you all you need is yourself". I'm starting to think that its true. Why do I need anyone else.

I left Aunt B's place at about 9 a.m., Kelvin was kind enough to drop me at the KTM station. I was a tad hungry as I only had my Milo, I bought my ticket to Sentral and the train came as soon I reached the platform. I slept along the journey my brain just was in snooze mode. I got down at KL Sentral I didn't want to go home yet so I wondered around, I watched the walks of life that passed me by, some setting up the their stall, some enjoying the Ramadhan Bazaar and some just heading to their destination. I took the Putra back to Masjid Jamek when I reached there my tummy rumbled,I got myself some roticanai and some tau foo fah for the boys.I live with hungry ghost you know.

Once I reached home, I noticed that the house still had minor renovation being done and strange guys still doing their thing as usual they left a mess. I swept the houseand did lil mopping that itself drained me I took a short nap, to my surprise when I woke up it was 5.30. Mum wanted me to go to church as tomorrow we were visiting my dad's relatives six feet under. I hope to god it doesn't rain.

As I went to church to my surprise Priscilla was there with her aunt. I wanted to run but then I taught I did nothing wrong. So I approched her and said hi. She was shocked, who can blame her. I had dinner with the family today 'sate' was what we had. Melman just called he wants me to go out with him... No money pokai already lah... doesnt he get it. He wants to meet me,lets see...

Diary:22 October 2004

I woke up from my deep slumber, my gf had woken me up just to say some that she loved me and she thinks I was special to her. What do say if you cant say the same thing back to the person? Its hard, I spoke to my best mate and I think I know how to solve it but its not gonna be pretty.

My journey to Klang began at 11 with my sidetrack of my routine banana leaf rice with Lenny. After that I took the train to Sentral. The train ride to Klang was a breeze most of the time I would dread the journey as it took too long but if you had a good book with you, time will just fly away. In the train with me were some high school kids who played hookie and were thinking about excuses to tell their parents. How that brought me back to my memories.

I reached Klang at about 3, during that time I pretended to be a Malaysian from overseas visiting. It makes the trip much fun. I've noticed people do treat you well if your a foreigner or have an accent. I don't mean top brag lost of people have said if I was a Negro please mind the term.

I met Mr Ong the security guy, nice man we haggled on the price and it was a done deal. We had dinner leftovers, mmmmm the best thing ever, curry always taste better the next day don't you think? B, still shows no sign or mourning. We are joking and having fun but some how I do sense a heavy heart. I'm spending the nite, gonna hang with Michele. Good night!!!

Diary:21 October 2004

Hmmm how would i sum up my day... the sky was crying. Sound too dramatic init. I had lunch at Chillies with Shelly today. I told her about my situation about my Priscilla. She told me over the years she kew me I'm starting to show that i know how to make the right decision. She said I would know best. We sneaked a stout each during lunch as we were so mellow the rest of the evening. I will be on leave tommorow will be heading to Klang, I need to be with my aunt to haggle with the security alarm guy. I bought my aunt some biscuits and Michelle some chips. Cant wait.....

Diary: 20 October 2004

Had a fairly good day, workload increased as usual. Shelly has been hopping on her Channel 9 contents. Will be meeting XFRESH team tommorrow I hope to put a face behind the names Shelly keep telling me. I shold start listing down all my work and cross them out, I seem to have too much to handle.

I told my gf how I really felt about the relationship, I dont think she took it well. I guess its best you be truthfull and honest in a relationship, I've got somethingking to do. I hope my journey to Klnag will help me out. I plan to take the long way over there, doing it old skool the bus system.

Diary: 19 October 2004

It has been a long weekend, a death in the family, extra workload and I just found out I have a Hippie girlfriend; that's how I sum up all that has happened to be over the last couple of days. I have been plagued with one question in my mind this couple of days,"Have you wanted something so much that once you got its not what you actually wanted?" My best friend thinks I'm avoiding him because I have a heavy schedule and I can not spend any time with him. I have to admit it my life not is all so cramped out with things for me there is one part of me which enjoys the situation and other side of me just wants to break free....

Diary: 13 October 2004

My house is all cluttered with renovation being done. My living room stuff is in my room which I share with 2 other brothers. I need to move out !!! My gf got pissed with me cause she didn't have my full attention, don't blame her was my bad, I'm already stating to fell like I'm gone loose the currently best thing in my life, my family.

I see changes headed right now, but changes are good... Right? I remember a quote for the movie Monte Cristo ' There is a storm brewing and its headed towards you, its up to you to get yourself ready or wait to the near end but after the storm passes is what we will judge you'.... I think that's how it goes

Work has been hectic yesterday as they changed the network system some restriction has been implemented making my job much more tougher to do

Januari by Glenn

Hi guys,

I would like to share the lyrics of this song with you all... Its been around for months now but I'm just starting to like it


Berat bebanku meninggalkanmu
Separuh nafas jiwaku sirna
Bukan salahmu apa dayaku
Mungkin benar cinta sejati
tak berpihak pada kita

Kasihku sampai di sini
Kisah kita
Jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan karena kita berbeda
Dengarkan, dengarkan lagu
lagu ini melodi rintihan hati ini
kisah kita berakhir di Januari

S'lamat tinggal kisah sejatiku, pergilah

Kasihku sampai di sini
Kisah kita
Jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan karena kita berbeda
Dengarkan lagu,lagu ini melodi rintihan hati ini
kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Dengarkan lagu, lagu ini
Melodi rintahan hati ini
Kisah kita berakhir...di Januari

Rantings on Jackie Chan

The Asian Hero will love and adore. Everyone said Bruce Lee was ‘All That’ but I think Jackie Chan has left a mark as film maker pioneer. The man as a Chinese acrobatic group and later went to the movies to be an actor, we progress slowly from his beginning stage to where he is right now.

Jackie has been a superstar actor for us in Asia, there was surely a time we just wanted to fight like Jackie Chan, do his fast moves. I still remember one clip of the old Police Story movie the setting was during Christmas he goes to this shopping complex and just to catch the bad guys as the bad guys have a much further pace them hi what he does is he jumps on the light of the decorations and swings down. Many time when I go to LOT 10 and see those lights set just like in the movie I always fantasize if I could do it just like him.

Jackie grew his popularity more by doing some English movies (Rush Hour 1/2, Shanghai Noon/Knights). These movies were good with none of his essence Westernized. But movies like Around the World in 80 days was a let down for me, as I think he just ruined the original authors (Jules Verne If I’m not mistaken) work of it.

Rumors were going on that Jackie is old and he would not be able to do movie like he used too, I believed them as well, but we were so wrong. Jackie did come up with another movie that I believe should stop these kind of rumors for the time being. The new Police Story has a very good script, story line, actors and lots of those Jackie Chan fast moves to keep you at your seat. Simple basic stories of Cops and Robbers with spicy elements in it have made this movie phenomenon.

Jackie too like us normal people has his skeletons in his closets. One skeleton that I’m baffled why there is no ‘Hoo Haa’ about is his son Jaycee Chan. How many of you knew Jackie was married and had a son. Show of hand please… If this was a normal action star it would have been blowed over, but to my surprise everyone was quite and if it was like nothing happened or was out of place. I asked my friend who stays in Hong Kong about who Jackie Chang married and he just smiled at me… (Read between the lines for those who are bit daft)

But watching his movie and documentaries on him, I’ve learned that his passion is film making, and he will make more films for us to enjoy. He might not be acting it but he will definitely be making more films for us to enjoy.

Introduction Of Self

Heloo.... Please allow me me to introduce myself. I am Mark Anderson all the way from Malaysia, the melting pot of many cultures. I'm 24 years of age born under the sign of the Metal Monkey & Aries. I work in a leading Content Provider (Free advertisement: AKN Messaging Technologies Bhd). What do I do there??? Well, I manage mobile downloads on the phone so any of you from Malaysia wants a ringtone a graphic can always pass you a couple.

I love reading, Asian literature seems to be my cup of tea. My favorite author's would be pretty Nair and Anita Nair (no way related). Nick hereby is quite fun himself. Fav books would be 100 Shades of White, Angels and Demon, chapatti and Chips and my most prized possession Harry Potter Series.

Music has been my life, I think that is the major factor why work well in my office. I just love music; from your rock to jazz but Hip Hop will always have a special place in my heart. My favorite artists are Busta Rhymes, Ludacris, P. Diddy, 2Pac, Biggy, Michael bubble, Diana Krall, Linkin Park..... list keeps on goin on and on. In short if the beat is good u will definitely see me dancing or singing it.

But I must declare my passion in live is FOOD, I live to eat. I love my food and being in Malaysia there is never a shortage of food and there are so many varieties on can choose from, Beginning with the oriental cuisine to the Indian spicy dishes, to the Malay favorite delicacies one jus have to only choose. But if that is not what you desire there is always Western, Vietnam or Thailand quisines at your finger tips.

So that's just a small description about myself. Love To get post it notes from you and I will definitely put more blogging stuff for you guys to read.

Poectic Ammo Loyal and True

I just got the greatest album of Poetic Ammo, it brought back memories and i noticed that Too Phat wasn't the 1st to fusion the Malay instrument into Hip Hop. I believe Poetic was the 1st to do so in their 1st album , song titiled Puluru Puitis which means Poetic Ammo in Malay.
I strongly feel that EMI didnt give Poetic Ammo the promotion/air play that they deserve like how that did for Too Phat. I would like to scream bias but that would put me in trouble and cause some people to be sensitive by my comment.
Poectic Ammo is a Malaysian band fighting in the Malaysian Music Industry, i see them as the Alleycats of this generation. Couple of Indian guys with a chinese dude. I still can remember the 1st time i heard the 1st songs of the abum 'Kuala Lumpur'. I practically could feel the vibe/energy that they were throwing at us. They were far better that 4u2C and the other so called Hip Hop bands.Forget Linkin Park and Limp Bizkit, my first dose of the new Age rock was 'Amunition Check'.
It sad to see that the original krew of Poetic Ammo has had indiffrences and has headed their own separate ways. I honestly would hope they the four of the would come back again come up with an album like the old times. But it doesnt seem like anything like that will happen in the near future.