Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Diary: Rambling Mind


I'm tired.... not at life but at work. I find myself surrounded by negative thoughts. I just want to quit work, period. I wish I had enough financial security to leave my job and do nothing. I always saw my life as a battle from one problem to another. I've never gotten anything easy and I had to fight for what I have. Lately I've been tired of fighting. What am I fighting for u ask. At work I fight to protect my department people from being abused. I've got 15 staff its a hard job. I fight to ensure my brothers are emotionally balanced. Somebody needs to put Alex in check, being so old he so sensitive, Andrew in the other hand is a brick wall you cant really tell what’s he thinking or feeling. I think its the age gap all I know about him is he only loves food too much. On my personal life I'm tired of my current lifestyle, I need some kind off change.. good god please do intervene.

At the office, it’s quite tensed as we need to hit or last quarters target. The office environment is quite tensed, everybody bouncing off his or her tension at each other. I couldn’t take anymore of it and skipped work on Friday. Lenny called me, as he wanted company to fix his car sound system, in short he was pimping out his sound system at Gombak. After doing his sound system we headed to play a couple round of pool to know who was a better player unfortunately it was a draw thus we told each other we would rematch each other soon. After pool we had dinner with Logen and Jaya near Pj State at a Chinese restaurant. So-so food but it was the company that I enjoyed. I reached home at about 12, I didn’t want to sleep so I watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S. season 10 on DVD. I've been putting that on hold. I didn’t want the illusion of the show to be over. I grew up with the show, I kind of related to the show. So I watched the entire season 10 till 4 am with couple of tears tearing down my face.

Sunday was Mothers Day and mum wanted to have Nasi Kandar, the only place I knew was Pelita. So we had lunch at Bangsar Pelita and later on headed to TMC to get some supplies for Alex when my parents go this Thursday to Jogjakarta. I really do hope they have fun. I on the other hand am looking forward to Serendah Waterfalls this Saturday. Will take pictures of it and I'll post it at the blog when I can yeah....

Lately there has only one thing is my mind, what it is you ask? POC = Pirates of the Caribbean. It came to me one day, what would my next tattoo. I closed my eyes and it popped in my head the picture in black and white a portrait of Captain Jack Sparrow. This has gotten so bad that I’m only listening to the soundtrack of POC. Must say it makes work much more bearable……

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