Diary: Movie Escapade

Friday was wonderful; it was when I was given my new BIG task. I was to handle the opening of our Bangladesh office, content wise only. I need to set up the basic equipment and content by 31 August 2005. I sure hope I don’t have to work on that day. Zaki is currently the Project Manager (PM) and as expected it is a last minute deal. I left early on Friday as I just wanted to sleep. On my way back I made a call to Aunt B we talked about stuff, just sharing and all. I stopped by Pasar Malam to get nasi goreng ayam but the shop was closed so I got popiah for dinner. At home I persuaded dad to watch Hostage starring Bruce Willis. It was a great movie I recommend to all those who like action flicks. I stayed up late watching lil TV

Saturday I was rudely awoken by my dad who was having a fit with Andrew as he couldn’t find his Taekwondo’s Uniform. My dad is such ticking time bombs no wonder no one ever talks to him. Aunt B said its my mums fault she be able to reach him, but hey people can only do so much. Kelvin has gone through another break up; poor boy under the cover of pride is hurting. Love hurts. As my dad woke the whole lot of us at 7 in the morning mum made breakfast and I was in front of the TV watching my cartoons. I was to meet up Shari later for lunch and a movie. We were to watch Charlie and The Chocolate Factory. One of my classic favorites, I remember seeing that in the theater with my mum and dad. What made me want to watch it more was actually because Tim Burton directed it, I think he has a real wild imagination and it comes out perfectly on the screen. Catch Big Fish on HBO and you will know what I mean.

After the movie I headed to Sg Wang to get some DVD’s. I got a couple of nice movie. I got Sin City, I know real old but I wanted to see what the hype was about. I also got Crush (All great Casting) and Eddie Griffin movie and my favorite Kim Possible The Movie. I was suppose to meet Mel but I had to cancel as Mum called me to help her do something for church. By 5 I was home took my bath and was out to church. I took advantage of attending mass. I had a sense of clarity when I entered mass. I knew what I had to do about my problem. But I did feel sad as there was something missing. I piece of a jigsaw missing kind of feeling. After mass mum asked me to sponsor KFC and I did and we had that for dinner. Watched another DVD, Eddie griffin one and slept at one.Sunday I woke up real late watched my Kim Possible on TV helped mum make Black Pepper Mutton with Nasi Briyani. Did my weekly chores, took my compulsory Sunday afternoon nap and the day was done.


*P/S: The Pic beside was done by my lil sis Marina. Its me and Siti. I know I hear you guys vomiting but my love to Siti grows strong :P

Diary: The Talk

Work has been quite hectic but nothing really much to complain. Kevin was again bugging with his Maxis content and what not. I tuned him out and got the others done. Its sad that my department that I have has a backstabber among us. My company now is quite big but anything that goes on Mark will know. This person was stupid enough to bad mouth me to one of my peeps. Told on me to my operations manager. Luckily there was no truth to it so now how do I weed out this person. Office politics……

I had a rude awakening about ladies giving birth and what happens to the ‘PART’ when they go to labor. Hasmida is in her 1st trimester I think and she gave us an sight of how things happen in HBKL which lead how a child is born. Do you know the ‘PART’ can be ruptured? GOD I know I’ll stop now but Damm I’m lucky I’m a guy. Selfish but lucky in anyway. I’ve always respected woman highly and after Hasmida’s talk will I’ll say I’ve put you ladies waaaay top. Hats off to you.

State of Confusion

‘Men are BASTARDS.’ Yes you heard me say it. The saying above I have heard most of my lady friends say. To my respond to that statement ‘Yes they are’. I can’t deny the fact that most men give a bad name to their gender. Nor am I saying that the opposite is sacred, pure and holy. Both with flaws which we can have a never ending bitch about. I have loads of single lady friends between the late 20 early 30’s. I find this group of ladies much easier to talk to, mature and do not live under any pretenses. Their only problem is that they are not married and their biological clock is ticking. Some maybe are in a relationship and their boyfriends are too afraid to plunge into Marriage or still fooling around. I think I understand who these women feel. They don’t have any stability.

These women have only one thing in mind. How/When are we going to settle down? Have a family. As they go through life in and out of relationship or get their man to plunge, they begin to think that they don’t need the man. Men are useless anyway; they say they can’t depend on them (see I’m not denying anything here). All the woman needs from a man is his sperm. From there she can take care of everything else. This has been in the thought of these women I have befriended with. Not a bad idea you think. There are so many single moms out there anyway. To be honest I have been coaxed to agree to give my sperm to this whom will not be named if she is not married at a certain age. The agreement is I give the sperm and I don’t take responsibility for the kid.

Before you pass judgment on me saying how disgusting Mark is, typical male! Please let me highlight that I was COAXED. A typical men given the choice to have sex with a lady with no string attach seems very appealing. Hey that’s a one night stand anyway. But to give a lady a child and not be a part of it disturbs me. You can say I brought up lil old school I would like to be with the person (Preferably loved and cherished) when she has the kid and be apart of the kids life. But why did I agree to proposal, because I thought she might be joking and she was in a relationship. It was a strong relationship which I was very sure it would end in marriage. Now she is no longer is in one and don’t believe in one no more. We chatted online the other day when she brought this issue back again.

She said, she no longer wants a relationship, all she wants is a baby and she is set for life. This made me afraid, guess who has to give the sperm I don’t really think I am up for it. I’m about to share something horrible here read the next paragraph if your goody too shoes I will not think any less of you. There is a part of me (the moral side of me) that says this is not good and all and there is another side of me the EVIL me (Always seen when totally drunk currently being suppressed) that says hey this is free unattached sex, you haven’t had much action recently and people you know are moving forward, getting married and what not while you stay alone and slog for the company. Besides your doing a friend a favour and it won’t hurt it in anyway. She asked u. As you can see my evil side has really have an ugly face.

I really don’t know what to do, yes its simple as saying follow your conscience its always right but the Evil me lives in me too its kind of hard not to listen to him. For now I will just let things be nor will I confront her till she confronts me. Let sleeping dogs lie.

Lil Treat

Hi Guys jus a lil treat for those who have the time check out this cute bears and topple them down.

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Diary: Buzy As Hell

Work has been killing since my last entry. I’ve been staying back in the office till late night complying to the new Telco guidelines. The closed one of my short code which made my GM quite pissed off with me. There is only so much Mark can do but my GM and Directors did manage to unsuspended the line and make it work. Now there are so many red tape in the business now its making it hard for me to cheat the public. Hahahahaa. Well I’ll just have to think of other ways.

I had a splendid weekend, after working 7 days in a row I really knew what I wanted. SLEEP. I stayed up really late on Friday watching TV and Initial D on my DVD player then I went to bed only to wake up at 8.30 because of the buzzing of my phones. I shouldn’t have brought my test phones back arrggghhh…. I woke up to find an empty house. No parents, just brothers. I made French toast for breakfast for the kids as I sipped some Kenyon tea which I got from London. Love the taste of it. I did a lil reading and then it was TV time. I watched cartoon more cartoons. I was itching to get into the kitchen. Alex and Andrew were out doing their thing. There wasn’t much I could cook with. I wanted to make a roast chicken but I just couldn’t get the ingredients I needed. I just need to wait till end of the month till I go grocery shopping I guess. Thinking of old Mother Hubbard who had lil in her cupboard, all that was left was cans of soup, a can of spring water tuna and spaghetti. Well I already knew what was for lunch, Spaghetti again!!

I decided to experiment a lil, I wanted to make a spicy tuna with spaghetti. I made a call on mum to ask her how she does her sardine and I improvise with my recipe. I think I made a good spicy tuna mum said so anyway. I attended mass in the evening. It was a good mass, I enjoyed sermon something I really can relate too. Sunday I was really a pig. I got up headed to the market bought breakfast for me and Alex and I enjoyed more cartoons. I did ironing while watching more movies on the tele and later skipped lunch for a Sunday nap. I was rudely awoken by an office call and the rest was just a mellow day……

Cerpen: Tsunami Cinta

Nama ku Ram,aku ingin berkongsi kisah cintaku. Sebuah cinta yang tidak kesampaian. Segalanya bermula semasa ku menaiki tren dari Kedah ke KLTujuanku ke KL adalah untuk menyambung pengajianku dan mencari rezeki di sana. Kelihatan tak ramai penumpang yang menaiki tren pada malam itu.Sebaik sahaja tren hendak memulakan perjalannya, seorang gadis bertudung duduk di depanku. 'Ayunya wajah gadis ini,detik hatiku?

Timbul satu perasaan yang lain dalam diriku. Gadis itu tersenyum kepadaku dan ku membalas. Niat di hati ingin bertanya siapakah gerangan si ayu ini. Aku memberanikan dia dan bertanya 'Hi ke KL juga ke?'. Dia menjawab dengan suara paling manis. Kami berkenalan namanya Wati sebaya dengan ku.

Dia pun sama macamku ingin ke KL untuk melanjutkan pelajaran. Perjalanan yang mengambil masa 6 jam dihabiskan dengan mengenali diri masing-masing. Dia anak tunggal dalam keluarganya. Anak emas katakan. Bercita-cinta nak jadi seorang usahawan wanita yang berjaya. Ku pula yang pertama dari 3 adik beradik. Saya bercita-cita hendak menjadi pengaturcara komputer. Wati akan tinggal bersama Pakciknya bila di KL

Ku bersama kawan yang berkerja di kota. Kami sampai di KL pada pukul 7 pagi. Kami mengucapkan selamat jalan dan kami ke arah masing-masing. Dalam hati nak ku tanya nombor telefonya tapi ku segan. Separuh jalan ku berhenti, ku menoleh ke belakang untuk mencari dia tapi dia tiada. Hati ku berdebar nak sangat ku berjumpa ngannya sekali lagi. Ku mencarinya di platform dia tiada. Ku cari lagi di station tapi besar sangat.

Tiada rezeki nampaknya ku melihatnya lagi. Ku beredar mencari kawan ku di KL. Masa depan ku menanti ku...

Setiap malam sebelum ku menyeberang ke alam mimpi fikiran ku kerap ke hari ku berjumpa ngan Wati. Lirikan matanya menjadi pujaanku. Di manakah dia? Suatu hari ku ke perpustakaan kolej terperanjat ku melihat Wati di sana. Dia tengah belajar berseorangan. Kali ini akan ku dapat nombor telefonnya

Hatiku berdebar bila ku menghampirinya. Kering pula tekak ku rasa. Cantik pula di hari ni, bertudung pink, serupa dia feminin. 'Hi' ku kata dia melihat ku and senyuman manis terukir di mukanya. "Eh kau pun belajar di sini tak sangka ya' ku tanya. 'Ah u pun ke' dia menjawab. Ku menjemputnya ke mamak di sebelah kolej untuk minum, dia menerima. Hari tu kami berborak kosong tapi ku berjaya mendapat nombor telefonnya

Mulalah hubungan kita erat. Berjumpa di kolej disiang dan ber-SMS waktu malam. Ku gembira bersamanya tapi ade yang dengki melihat kami bersama. Sudah sebulan berlepas ku mengenali Wati. Apa yang ku tahu, ku sentiasa ingin bersamanya. Bila ku lihat wajahnya hatiku berdebar. Yang ku tahu...

Aku mencintai Wati. Tapi bagaimana ku ingin meluahkan padanya. Takut pula cintaku di tolak. Teruk lagi kalau dia menolak persahabatan ku. Ku perah otak takde pula idea. Aku menanya kawan baik ku pendapatnya. Cheng kata aku gila nak lafaz cinta kat awek melayu. Habis di potong katanya. 'Hai di KL ramai seperti ku, U tak tengok Sepet ke' ku menjawab. 'Dalam Sepet hero dia mati U pun nak mati ke? Banyak masalah lah' jawab Cheng.

Ku berfikir mengapa ada yang sebegitu memanglah hubungan antara kaum susah sikit. Banyak cerita tentang hubungan dengan melayu pernah didengar. Dalam hati Wati adalah untuk ku. Ku perlu memberanikan diri, tabahkan hati kerana besok akan ku melafazkan cintaku pada Wati. Ahh... gementarnya

Keesokan harinya aku berjumpa Wati di kolej. Aku memberitahunya supaya menunggu ku selepas kelas terakhir. Ada hal hal penting ingin ku beritahu. Sepanjang hari aku tak dapat tumpukan perhatian ku asyik ingat pasal petang nanti. Beranikah ku, Hai apa nak aku katakan, I Love You? Runsing !!!

Petang menjelma dan Wati menunggu ku di depan kolej. Menanti ku dengan senyuman yang dapat mencairkan hati. Aku menyuruhnya ikut ku ke Pizza Hut. Aku mendapat tempat paling jauh dari semua pelanggan Wati menanya mengapa duduk jauh sangat. Ku hanya ujar 'Adelah'. Masanya sudah tiba 'Wati...

'Wati I nak bagi tahu U sesuatu, I cintakan padmu. Sudah lama ku pendamkan perasaan ini. Kamu sudi menerima ku?' dah aku melafazkannya lega rasanya. Wati berdiamkan diri setelah aku melafazkan cinta ku. Cemas rasanya pula, sudahkah ku lukakan hatinya. Terus ku meminta maaf keatas salah silap ku. Wati dengan lembutnya bercakap 'I pun sebenarnya suka kat U tak tahu cam mana nak beritahu. I orang kampung tak pandai nak berkata. Awak fikir boleh ke hubungan kita berkekalan. Kita berbangsa lain macam tak padan aje', mendengar penjelasnya aku pula menjawab 'Kamu risaukan... orang yang melihat kita atau keluarga mengetahui pasal kita.' Wati memberitahu dia takut diketahui keluarganya terutamanya Pakciknya di KL

Aku hanya dapat memujuknya tapi dalam hatiku pun takut jika keluarga ku mengetahui pasal ku and Wati. Wati dan aku semakin erat setelah cinta kita dilafazkan. Setiap hari kita berjumpa, bermanja dan berpengang tangan. Kami saling cinta mencintai. Bila kita bersama ramai juga yang melihat kami tapi kami endahkan aja. Wati kadang2 risau jikau ada mata beritahu hubugan kita kepada pakciknya

Tapi sampai mana kita dapat menyembunyikan cinta kita. Sepandai mana tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua. Cinta kita diketahui Pakciknya. Pakciknya amat marah bila ketahui Wati ade teman lelaki. Kemarahnya marak lagi bila dia tahu ia bersama seorang budak India. Wati mencuba menjelaskan padanya tapi semuanya tidak dipedulikan.


Wati tak hadir ke kolej beberapa hari malah telefon bimbitnya tak dapatku hubungi. Aku cemas patutkah aku ke rumahnya untuk menjumpanya. Takut pulak pakciknya. Apa patu ku buat. Aku ke rumah Wati nasib waktu itu dia keseorangan. Wati bercerita pakciknya nak dia hentikan perhubungan dia. Pakciknya juga ingin dia bertunang dengan anak lelakinya. Patah hatiku mendengarnya. Wati merayu supaya aku membawanya ke tempat lain. Tapi dimana akan ku bawanya pergi. *Bersambung...*

Diary: Friday's Tension, Saturdays works....

The haze seems to have clerared up a bit thanks to the heavy rain that night. Work has been extremely busy with new laws being implemented by the Telco's. Thanks to the shady content providers who charge their users secretly and run their bills. Telco has come up with certain rules that all content providers needs to comply immediatly by this monday. I'll have to come in on Saturdays to finish up with testing. I will be dragging the whole team for it but we plan to meet at Chillis for a nice hot meal than slogg the night away. Arrggghh...

Tommorow apparently I will have to go to Klang for my aunts birthday. GREAT. I wanted to spend a lazy weekend at home not go top a Haze infested place. I'll have to cancel on Shari as we planned to meet up. Well as a compensation I'm goin to tell you what I bought you from London, a Paddigton Bear/keychain. Not a small wan nor not a big one. Sorry...

I'm heading back to work now play time is over

Diary: Hazy Days

I hate Indonesians NOW. Due to their open burning we are suffering its not the first time this has happened. Why isn't our government doing something about this predicament, bring Indonesia to the International court and sue their sorry ass off. Its ridiculous. I doubt Indonesian people are taking responsibility for their own acts. My brothers are on leave due to the haze do wish my office would close as well but AKN Mtech works 24/7. My company had the audacity to give the following speech '.... as you know the quality of air is detoriating and if the government declares "daurat" i still hope you can come to work as AKN will still be open. We appreciate your hardwork'. My boss now sounds like Rick Gervais from The Office.

Marina is quite excited about her wedding in January. She is planning up her wedding. Where to have it? The color cordination. Tempat pelamain abnd what not. I cant but feel so happy for her. I really wish her all the best. Jay (Marina's fiance) is luckyu to have such an understanding person like her. I had lunch with her today. I made chicken mushroom soup with garlic bread and she had noodles, we sat in the pantry and we talked.

Kanchana has been surprisingly been nice to me. Lenny has told me to stay away as he said I would get hurt. Yeah I would definately crash and burn but I honestly have to say that Miss Malaysian Indian 2004 is quite hot. Hmm I am a sucker..... I have been asked to write a a love 'cerpen' by the company for a new service. Its back to high school again. I love writing, dont really think I'm that good but I just love writing. I finished a Part 1 interacial love story (ala SEPET) which I will post on the bloog as soon as I have the time. The story quite jiwang a bit would make you.... geli geliman. Hahahaha.

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

When I was in London this guy rained the chart with the song title above. He wrote it about his ex. I love the poetry of the song if you have the chance to hear it yu must. For those who has the broadband services look at this video clip



http://www.virgin.net/music/musicvideos/jamesblunt_yourebeautiful_hi.html



James Blunt - You're Beautiful Lyrics

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure. S
he smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a momentthat will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel
With a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Sunday: Gone Potter and Organised

I woke up at 10 headed to KLCC to pick my books that I ordered for work. Headed to SFC for breakfast and to begin with my Harry Potter book. Yes, Yes I know I'm a lilttle back dated but I was on vacation for 2 weeks I'm adjusting myself. I headed home later after a quick nip to Citibank. No one was at home so I took the liberty of watching a DVD, I watched 7 seconds starring Wesly Snipes which was a good movie. I recommend it, I think its great. Took a short nap did my ironing and the folded my clothes. Good weekend spent.

Saturday: Ban The Bomb

Today I woke up at 6. Wasnt really up for it especially on a Saturday. Today I would attend my 1st demonstartion to BAN THE BOMB. I was suppose to meet Lester and his group of activist but was surprised to meet 2 girls who werent actually interested in the walk anyway. I felt so left out in the sense that I hadfnothing to say. Lester tried to incude me in the conversation but hey it was his friends with their stories. I just listened. After the demonstration we headed to La Bodega for breakfast, I'm up with classy places but this placed was just ridiculous. The price was quite steep 4 of us had breakfast and the bill was like RMXXX. I & Lester had pancakes with maple syrup, the girls has a creape and some English breakfast.

After breakfast I parted ways and waited for Kelvin to pick me up. We headed up to Sg Wang for a lil shopping. I got some DVD's for myself. Kelvin got the DVD set for Desprate Housewife season one for his girl friend. I meet up with Chinjoo in Sg Wang and we headed to Dome for lunch, Mel meet up with us and began drinking. Nick later joined and invited us to Thai club. Oh Boy Thai club here we go again.... I spilt beer on Chinjoo by accident as i was passing the photos. I felt ashamed, clutz I am. After a lil walking and Kelvin & I headed back home. I took a short nap woke up refreshed took my bath and got ready for the night life.

There was actually nothing much I missed. Thai club was still like it wass crowded fullof chinese people who couldnt dance. I dance the night away...

Back To Work

Arrgghh I so want to stay in London and not come back at all. But reality kicks me behind my arse and I'm back to my monotonus life in AKN Mtech. It was really hard getting back into the saddle as I really was in a holiday mood. 1st day of work I practically did nothing but acces what really happened while I was away. Lenny threathend to resign because of the overload of work which was pushed to him. Thank God Lester calmed him down and has decided to stay. Loads of new faces in the office and I have forgotten some of my collegues name. Bad in it. The pic below8 was taken at King Cross station where they did the scene Platform 9 3/4 u can also see the bridge that they walked on as well. Damm how I miss London

I'm Back

I’m back. I had the best 2 week vacation one could have. I can honestly say that I’m well rested and I have a peace of mind. But I surely miss London and would love to stay there all my life. It such a peaceful quite place, but hang on you might be thinking of the bombings that have happen in London there would be chaos but NOPE no such thing. People go on with their lives taking the public transport and moving on with life. I guess the highlight of my trip would be watching Phantom of the Opera in ‘Her Majesty’s Theater’ with my aunt. It was out of this world. I was amazed/speechless. I got loads of photos to keep in memory. I obviously cant post them on my blog. Those wanna see it please do see me, we’ll hook up.